DIARY
Summer, 2004
THEN & NOW
Among the array of dazzling
celebrities who attended Judy Garland’s final concerts at the
Palace Theatre in the summer of 1967, Joan Crawford (over the top
in pink everything) was the biggest star. Even Judy’s daughter,
Liza, whose visibility was on the ascent, couldn’t compete
with JC.
The name that no one had
ever heard was Peter Allen’s, a performer Garland had discovered
in Hong Kong and subsequently introduced to Liza who wound up marrying
him (even though he was gay, gay, gay).
In fact, Judy introduced
Peter, gushing and sputtering his praises, as Liza made her way to
the stage while Peter remained seated in the audience. Most of us
didn’t even see his face.
Liza wore a purple mini-dress
that flowed beautifully as she improvised a dance upstage while Judy
sang her city medley (“Chicago” and “San Francisco”).
Perfectly in sync with each other, it was a dazzlingly theatrical
mother and daughter duet.
Marking the first time I’d been away from my hometown of St. Louis
for any duration, I was in New York, studying at the American Academy of
Dramatic Art’s Summer Session. Carole was someone I’d immediately
befriended at school, our relationship cemented by our mutual Judy obsession.
We attended the opening night and at least fifteen of the performances
during the month-long run. Flat broke, we were so devoted to the legendary
Garland that we risked life and limb by sneaking into one of the most famous
houses on Broadway by climbing up a fire escape.
While Garland didn’t
exactly fall into the musical theatre mode, she possessed the emotional
dynamics of any show on Broadway. Among the knock-out performances
that summer were Barbara Harris in THE APPLE TREE, Joel Grey in CABARET
and Angela Landsbury in MAME
Thirty-seven years later,
my daughter Tia and I are lucky to experience a performance of equal
power: Hugh Jackman as Peter Allen in THE BOY FROM OZ. The musical
biography script specifically references the three-year Allen-Minnelli
marriage and recreates the drama of Judy’s death in 1968.

In a direct address to the
audience, Jackman as Allen alludes to a long presumed connection
between the star’s demise and the Stonewall riots.
Imagine being a queer (but
not out) and having Liza as your wife and Judy as your mother-in-law.
Whether it played out as poetically in real life is beside the point
but in the musical theatre version, Allen seems to accept his gayness
after the drag queens and leather men fight for the liberation of
all queers.
Jackman’s commitment
to the role is heart-pumpingly powerful—vulnerable, and oh
so fucking theatrical. The moment the light hits him, he pulls you
in and doesn’t let go. His charisma is electric; not the stuff
of puffed up press releases. My nine-year old fell madly in love
with him. (So did I.)
The actress who plays Judy
maintains the tragic star’s dignity amidst nervous ticks and
that manic laugh. The Liza character is attempted by an actress who
does a good vocal impersonation but seems a bit clunky. Keep in mind
that this was Liza when she was skinny and graceful.
I must have been in some
denial about the likelihood that Allen’s death form AIDS would
be depicted in the musical. Seeing it coming, I wondered if it was
a mistake to bring Tia.
When Allen’s lover
dies at the top of act two, Tia went into a response mode that was
clearly different that the euphoria on her face when she watched
the showstopping musical numbers. She wiped one tear away, then another
and repeated the ritual before checking to see if I was crying. Then,
very delicately, she wiped one of my tears away—something she
had never done before.
The people-pleasing plot
manages to turn Allen’s death into an over-the-top finale,
recreating his triumphant final performances in his homeland of Australia.
At lunch the day we are
scheduled to return to L.A., Tia and I share our thrilling experience
with my old friend Carole. It seemed impossible to comprehend what
had transpired in the thirty-seven years that were separated by Judy
at the Palace with Allen in the audience (Then) and Hugh Jackman
playing Allen (Now). Carole and I agreed that the Stonewall riots
and the AIDS crisis, both captured in THE BOY FROM OZ, were pivotal
for us.
Both Carole and I have experienced
inevitable shifts in terms of our respective careers. As wide-eyed
teenagers, we shared the dream that we were destined for a long career
as Big Broadway Stars. Instead, life has rewarded us more subtly
and less predictably but no less resonant.
Tia, of course has proven
to be a force in my life that is unparalleled. At seventeen, I never
would have imagined a scenario that would include something as harrowing
as AIDS or as utterly awesome as being Tia’s father.
It was a fabulous vacation,
overflowing with memories. But like the defining moment of seeing
Liza perform with her mama while her new husband watched from the
audience at the Palace in 1967, recalling the summer of 2004 will
likely be stirred by the unforgettable performance of Jackman as
Allen.